Friday, 30 October 2009

All That I know Of The Black Rose

I haven't seen it, my garden is devoid of it.
Heard it grows alone, heard it is born once.


Of all the colours, it is the most special;
Seasons' blessing rests on it,
It doesn't grow on Earth.
You need a different place.


Deep dark full of flesh.
Sweet or sour nobody knows the taste.
Only you can see it,
Seductive to the eyes,
Attracting making you clutch it hard,
And that's when it strikes.









A rush of blood, touches your nerve
And you are touched by the
Magic of the Black Rose.


Then you know about it,
Nothing special, just like others.
Only the colour is black
Only it is born in a different place.


Inside pages, of old books,
Inside kept aside from your view.
What it was before we don't know,
It is born out
When the old spirits dies off;
It is born when
White Yellow Red Pink
Turns Old.

Thursday, 1 October 2009

Why I Don't Believe In God

Well I wasn't born an atheist. Time made me one. I don't hate all the beliefs, I don't trust them or believe in them. What is it? GOD? Have we seen him? Through out the ages, we are taught of believing in him, having faith on him but why? Who is he? Omnipotent, omnipresent and omniscient? Is it really true? Is he the supreme? Then what are we humans?



Over the years my blind faith in GOD, not only of my own religion but of all has lead me on to a revelation that I myself find it unbelievable. We all love to believe in what we want to believe. But have ever thought of actually believing what others, many ask us? Do we even think of checking whether they are wrong or right? No. Cause truth is bitter and reality hits hard. Anyways, where is the origin of religion? In ancient times, gods were looked upon as tyrannical powerful characters always trying to find a moment where they can destroy or inflict terror upon humans. Don't believe me? Go through the ancient Classical Mythologies. Then came Jesus Christ. What was his need to create a totally new religion, a new way, a new dimension? He could have preached taught and relieved fellow Jewish men out of agony through his own religion. No he didn't. Maybe he had other plans. Its better to show that am a religious men and rule over your followers than become a king and try to rule over the people because at the end of the day you will be called as a dictator. Never mind.



Then there are millions of religion all over the world - Hinduism, Islam, Sikhism, Buddhism, Jainism, Zoroastrianism, etc etc. There is no end. God is suppose to be one but he is identified in different ways in different places. Most of the religion are formed later. Like for example - Sikhism is formed by a Hindu man, Buddhism we all, so is Jainism. Why did they have to create new chains? Let us talk about our own religion - Hinduism. Its a vast religion, vast culture. But its not static. Mane people say it has survived cause of its change. Its changing day by day. For example, the Gayatri Mantra was suppose to chanted by men only, so far was the belief that the work 'OM' was not suppose to said by women as the word is said from inside, generating from the womb which might hamper the birth of child (We don't know the truth). But look at us today, each and every girl in India or abroad knows the Gayatri Mantra and even chants it.



A very popular person has said if you believe in something, you should not be scared of what you have, if you have confidence in your religion then why think what others say? But we do, it shows we are unsure of our own existence.

Why do we believe in GOD? My answer because when we don't have confidence in ourselves we tend to believe that miracles will help us out of every situation and usually that miracle is suppose to be done by GOD. But when it doesn't?

GOD is said to Omnipotent Omnipresent and Omniscient.
Omnipotent are humans, they can create they can destroy. We fear about other, powerful nations striking us, powerful people terrorising us, harming us. DO we fear that GOD will kill us? Harm us. Men has the power to reach the moon, they also have the power to stay a beggar all through his life.
Omnipresent - Do we see GOD everywhere? Do we even see him when we need? Have he ever, ever in your life shown his face even for a second? NO. At least not to me. I can guarantee you all, I had this unnerving faith in Jesus Christ, he was the soul for me. Well he actually didn't last long, cause for me he became a symbol of pretense. Man is omnipresent. You ask your friend, your parents to be with you, they will always be (unless your life is like that of Ekta Kapoor's serials).
Omniscient - GOD is suppose to have total knowledge of everything. But its humans who decide what will be our future, its us to form the calenders, its doctors who saves us, at least tries to. GOD? Where is he in the chapters.



Now many will say I have seen miracles. Now lets see what is Miracles ::

1. An event that appears inexplicable by the laws of nature and so is held to be supernatural in origin or an act of God: "Miracles are spontaneous, they cannot be summoned, but come of themselves" (Katherine Anne Porter).
2. One that excites admiring awe.
3. A miracle play.

A word having three dimensional meaning. An event that appears inexplicable by the LAWS OF NATURE and so is HELD to be SUPERNATURAL in origin or an act of GOD.

Firstly, LAWS OF NATURE, and then it is held to be supernatural in origin OR, OR, an act of GOD. A word miracle is nothing but an event which happens suddenly, which usually is related with good end and we always have a tendency to relate it to GOD? What harm has men done?

Actually the fact is we are cowards, and we follow the GOD in fear, when we are alone, when we are hopeless, when we are not confident of our own actions. The fact is we don't trust ourselves or our fellow humans and this makes us believe in things which have been passed on by word of mouth. The fact is we love to believe in things which are good, always overlook the truth.

Well alas, I don't believe in GOD because yet I haven't met him, said 'Hi' 'Hello' to him, I don't believe in GOD cause I trust myself and the people I want to trust in. I believe am not alone and hopeless. I will be so only when I will let myself be.

Lastly, I don't disrespect others believes, I don't mean to hurt anyone, I simply wrote this cause over the last one year I have been made to make others understand why I don't believe in GOD, thousand times. I guess this will help them. I might have left out a lot of points with which I wanted to start, so excuse me. And I give anjali or do what my mom asks me only to make her happy. But I am confident about my believe and doing all these , I believe won't erase the fact that I DON'T BELIEVE IN GOD.